How to care
Today is my last day at a job that has been my greatest source of grief, frustration, anger, and overall unhappiness. When I started I thought it would be a great place for me to develop my career. Not so, and I found that put pretty quickly. I threatened to quit at least twice before but I kept coming back because of my patients. They all complained to me about how terrible the company was with keeping them informed about their care and the lack of experience from the help. I feel like once I leave them they’ll never get the help or support they need or want. This seems to be a problem I run into a lot. Disease, poverty, hunger, violence.. How do you pick just one cause to stand behind? I can’t bring myself to puck just one. I want to start at ground zero, but where is that? Then I feel guilty for not helping at all. Vicious cycle
But anyway, quitting my job I feel guilty for leaving my patients with people I don’t think care for them well enough. But this job was placing me in ethical dilemmas on an almost daily basis. There’s nothing more depressing and stressful than an ethical dilemma. I’ll be so much happier without this job. It’s going to be really hard for me to find a nursing job that fits me
